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Lost Years: Shandy Bearman Shandy Bearman

Fri. June 23rd 2017 - Sun. July 9th 2017
the fifty fifty arts collective By Donation (All Ages)
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Shandy Bearman: Lost Years
Sound by Night Mother

Exhibition Opening: Friday, June 23rd at 7pm
Exhibition Dates: June 23rd to July 9th at 12pm

'Lost Years' uses personal iconography to represent a journey through depression, and anxiety. These highly personal representations are offered for viewers to touch, smell, listen to, and interact with. Through this intimate exchange, the work attempts to make space for empathy, and creative collaboration. Participants can experience, and interpret the work through the lens of their own stories. There is opportunity for these stories to be told, and to become part of the work as well.

During a loss and subsequent depression, I learned how to knit, and found it one of the only ways to make it through the day not crippled by emotional pain. Depression is not inherently creative, or romantic. Depression is feeling nothing. Depression is flat, repetitive, and isolating.

The way out is through, by moving one step at a time, even if the bigger picture is unclear. It is only in looking back that we can appreciate the beauty in what felt chaotic or insignificant at the time. Depression robbed me of an important and integral part of myself: my art practice. This work is part of the process to make peace with the time I spend lost there.

Knitting is Meditation
Each stitch is the only focus. Fabric and form are created with repetition and time.

Repetition is Sanity
Line drawings are my 2D version of knitting. I wanted to draw, but had no specific goals or larger focus. With each line and action, form was created.

Shandy Bearman is a visual artist living in Vancouver BC. She has a BFA from the University of Victoria, and is deeply grateful for her time in the Camosun College Visual Arts program. Shandy's work primarily focuses on the personal; the anxiety inherent in our need to classify, place value on ourselves, others, and our experiences.

Sound provided by Nightmother.
Jim Stilborn is a musician and sound artist in Vancouver. He has been performing as Night Mother since 2005. He has never made any money from it - which has only partially been his choice.


the fifty fifty arts collective is comprised of individuals living and working on unceded and occupied First Nations Territories, specifically the lands of the Songhees and Esquimalt Nations, as well as the W̱SÁNEĆ, Sc'ianew and T'Souke First Nations.

The programming space itself is situated on Songhees and Esquimalt Territory but engages with individuals and communities across Turtle Island.

As a collective we endeavour to deepen our own understandings of how we are implicated in the history and in the present ongoing project of settler colonialism. As members of the fifty fifty arts collective we continually responsibilize ourselves to the complex kind of space that is the fifty fifty which hosts and facillitates the dissemenation of the ideas and work of others.

Accessibility Information:
The entrance to the fifty fifty arts collective is wheelchair accessible, however the door is not automatic and we have no washrooms on site. A more comprehensive statement regarding our accessibilty is in progress, specific questions or requests regarding accessibilty can be sent to [email protected]